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probably dead

If I said when CNN first broke the story Adam Mayes kidnapped the Bain family, a mother and her 3 daughters I felt the oldest daughter and mother were dead and Adam Mayes would shoot himself in the head so I said “he is probably dead”, I would deny it.  I would say there is something about how the pigmentation in the photos of such persons appears, like being able to see how the life force was drained.

Wonder if having de ja vu at a critical and traumatic time means the person can get through it better the second, third, fourth time around because they know they are having de ja vu.  It used to be when I had de ja vu I believed it meant I was being in the right place at the right time, but now my de ja vu perspective has changed, taking on a new meaning, that maybe there is de ja vu to aid a person in getting through something better this time than they did last time.  Regardless, de ja vu still makes me nervous and cautious.

If I could predict something today, I would predict that Isabel Celis is on the Tohono O’odham Indian Reservation in the Sonoran desert on the Mexican side of the border and that the person responsible for her absence from her home is left handed.  Sure hope they find that child.

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Posted by on May 16, 2012 in Uncategorized


shamanism and metaphysical bloodhounding

Honestly somebody could do a thesis or dissertation on the shamanism and metaphysical bloodhounding because although shamanism is a rather primative practice, in existence cross culturally before “religion” came on the scene, and even though metaphysics is an ancient philosophy, the thought and deed go hand in hand. The bloodhounding comes from the “hunt”. A person that does shamanism as a verb is in fact “hunting” and a person that does metaphysical philosophy as a verb is indeed “hunting”. I think a person that becomes adept at both, simultaneously, can be described as a metaphysical bloodhound. These are not people looking for the “truth” or “religion”, but rather using tools in a creative and intentional manner to solve problems. I don’t want to make this sound all rosy and positive because in order to obtain the shamanism skills some suffering is in fact necessary, and not all those adept in shamanism have good intentions when they use the tools it offers. I view shamanism as a bridge to metaphysical concepts and ideas because for me personally it does me little good to go hunting in lower, middle, or upper world for something to bring back and to put into something else or someone else if there is no metaphysical information or understanding to be gained by it, because otherwise it would be like waking up and going through an entire day, dying the same day, only to wake up again and do exactly all the same things, die again, every single day exactly the same way, and for me it would mean a person cannot go on beyond the threshhold of ordinary reality (which is a shamanic term). So while I might spend some time in church, reading the bible, interpretations of it, the Koran, the Book of the Dead, Sutras, Mantras, and musty, dusty stuff encrusted with the sands of time until I nod off and slide off the chair, I spend a lot of time studying non-ordinary reality (again a shamanic term), frankly I have been doing that since I was a very young girl and before I was became aware of samsaric suffering. Most of us have, we just don’t know it. A part of non ordinary reality is death, but there are many other examples too, such as perception in seizures, trance, being able to absorb oneself in rocks, the sensation of flying or leaving the earthly plane, mental communication v. emotional communication, how “will” works, law of attraction, phenomenon of noise of the no noise, duality, vortexes, the effect of agreement, effect of non-agreement, the effect of vitiation, the effect of renunciation (exorcism not always the best thing to do), demonology (not all demons are bad or evil), metaphysical hierarchies (there are several), metaphysical worlds, finding lost things, finding lost people, finding lost souls (can be dangerous), guiding lost souls (not as dangerous as finding them), finding almost anything whether it is evil or good and figuring out how to quickly discern the difference because what is evil in ordinary reality is not always evil in non-ordinary reality. I am convinced beyond certainty that the kingdom of heaven is not far from us at all. But close does not count for horseshoes or hand grenades. I don’t know what it is going to take for me to get there but I sure do want to go. I am convinced that whatever it takes to get there varies from soul to soul, that some are closer than others and some are even waiting for others to catch up. But whatever it takes for me to get there my very soul depends upon so I feel an urgent obligation to my life in ordinary reality to figure out my place in non-ordinary reality. I don’t want to keep living then dying, and repeating that same process over and over again, never moving forward, never moving backward, never advancing in any direction. That, for me, would be an eternal nightmare. So in my studies I incidentally observe things, and notice things regarding others. There have been occasions when it wasn’t incidental at all, but intentional on my part but those have been very rare occasions where I asked for and got permission. But I am not a psychic, or a medium, or a clairvoyant, or a saint, so those intentional journeys I have taken for very specific purpose have been very treacherous for me where the risk was not returning to ordinary reality. I do not use substance or drugs to achieve existence in a state of non-ordinary reality for that very reason. It is something I don’t take lightly but only after a long period of introspective self examination, prayer, reflection and purification because the reality is the experience might be so fierce and horrific that it isn’t possible to make your way back. A person never knows when they are going to run into that kind of situation on a journey and that is why they will sometimes take multiple power animals with them when they go but even those might not be enough protection from beings that come at you from the left (whether animal or something indescribable) that ferociously guard realms and territories. Unless you have permission from something more powerful, those beings are not in the wrong. They are there to rip all intrusions to shreds over and over and over again, they represent the most primative aspects of yourself that knows you have really messed up because you are someplace you are not supposed to be and you did not get there in the normal way which means you definitely are not prepared for it and you have no right to be there. Doesn’t matter what time it is because all those places are eternal, there is no such thing as time there. Doesn’t matter what is going on with your corporeal body because you are not aware of it and might not ever be aware of it again. It is not a normal death where you float away from your body, and return to it to see your funeral and eulogy. A being trapped eternally in their own bad decision to go someplace they should not have went to in the first place, repeatedly dying painful, monstrous deaths over and over again without any way to escape, is an un-cool way to go. I am determined to avoid it if there is anything at all I can do to prevent it. Nothing in ordinary reality compares because if a person is bashed and hacked to pieces on earth at least they are only bashed and hacked to pieces just once but in that non-ordinary reality it is over and over and over again. I can’t speak for anyone else, only myself, but I know that can and does happen in non-ordinary reality. It might be some people’s idea of hell, or purgatory, but for me it is about being someplace you are not supposed to be either because you don’t have permission to be there or you made some kind of mistake, got lost, and wound up somewhere you do belong and are being attacked because of it. Its something the journeyer did wrong, not because the thing ripping you to shreds is wrong. It is all righteous to do it. If people think they don’t have any rights here on earth, just wait till they get beyond the trappings of earthly space and time, a different ball game. The kicker is they only have themselves to blame for it.

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Posted by on December 30, 2011 in Uncategorized


Re: Aliahna Lemmon, how I knew

Approximately 5 minutes into seeing a news story that Aliahna Lemmon was missing they showed her picture and I was immediately reminded of Zahra Baker. I can only speak for myself but photos of persons taken in life take on a different quality after they have passed away, and if they have been dismembered every photo of them taken in life appear to have a more faded out quality to me. I don’t know why that is the case for me, it just is so I don’t doubt it because every time that measure for me has been an accurate predictor. Same thing was true for me when they were showing pics taken in life of Zahra Babker, I knew right away from the quality I viewed the pics in that child had been dismembered and I said so in posts. I don’t know whether the pics really are faded or not, I only know that was my perception of them so I instantly knew. The second thing I saw was a pic of Mr. Mike the man that was babysitting Aliahna and upon viewing his pic I immediately knew he killed her in a brutal and violent manner, I thought of a nearby business that seemed like a grocery store. Contrary to belief I actually channel living people better than I channel dead people. So upon viewing Mr. Mike’s pics I was able to channel him pretty quickly. When I say channel I mean to get a feel or fix on how he mus have been feeling, for his perception, to see, smell, feel, taste, and otherwise sense the way he would and very strong feelings of aggression and panic came through instantly for me. For me channeling the dead takes much more and is something I do not like to do. First, it takes permission from the next of kin or the dead soul themselves. Second, it takes permission from God to go find them especially if they are not where I think they would be. Third, it takes discipline and determination to not go any further than the scope permission was granted for in the first place. Fourth, it takes faith and Fifth it takes good control. Therefore I am more inclined to channel feelings and energy from people and things in the environment. This does not make me psychic, maybe a bit of a metaphysical bloodhound. The real challenge for me is the bigger picture stuff, or trying to figure what a singular event means might mean in the larger frame or how it relates to other events. In order to do that I have to approach it from numerous disciplines, and sometimes completely out of the box. The more I understand the less I know but the more practiced and better at it I become. This is no joke to me because I feel like the purpose of my life on earth is to understand exactly that. Sometimes I don’t have all the facts I need but that doesn’t stop me from getting from it what I need to get, which is the very purpose of this blog. So I can look back on it and figure things out. So Aliahna. What I know about her was she was handicapped, impaired vision and hearing, ADHD, and PTSD all in her short life of 9 years old, and her family would not say what caused these things to occur, just that it was central nervous system damage but they would not say how which means to me somebody probably did something very violent to this child long before she came into contact with Mr. Mike to be murdered by him. She had two little sisters younger than her and they were in the trailer when Mr. Mike did whatever he did to her before he killed her and dismembered her. More than likely he sexually abused her, the two other little girls woke up from hearing her shriek, he told them she is having nightmares, go back to sleep, don’t worry about a thing and by that time he had already bashed her head in with a brick because she probably ran for the door to get away but he panicked and killed her, then he had to get rid of the body. When a person dies their soul will usually stick close by the body and within the first 3 days of death the soul might return to the body numerous times because they do not yet have what the buddhist call a “desire” body or ethereal shell body to substitute for their dead body, so they will try to enter the dead body because they miss having a body. But if they have died a severely traumatic or violent death sometimes they will flee from their body and attach to other people or things in the environment. In this case there were two very young sisters in the environment and wanting to protect them as big sister aspects of her soul likely attached to one or both of the younger sisters. It will not surprise me at all if and when they report they see and speak with their big sister then and now and probably for quite some time in the near future. That is why those two little girls really should be removed out of the home which is just a few doors down from where their big sister was harmed, murdered, and dismembered. Sometimes in order to advance to a different realm or advancement in being a soul’s “ego” must be shattered. The more shattered the ego the closer one comes to God, that is just a fact. What people don’t agree is what is God exactly? But that would take up a whole different blogging session. The point is this child’s life was misery from the very beginning, throughout her life, and at her death in the very short 9 years she was on our earthly plane, not only was her ego shattered in every way, her spirit was shattered by whatever happened just before she was murdered and her body was shattered as well. Even her skull was fractured. But if she managed to hold on to consciousness before she passed then she advances to a much better state of being,perhaps even to Bodhisattva-hood. If she lost consciousness perhaps not. I would be able to complete more of this analysis if I knew if her eyes were open or shut at death, I am willing to bet they were open. Assuming this then, she has advanced to a much better and higher state, maybe even attaining the highest state while some aspects of her “suld” soul has lingered around in the two younger sisters, the ice in the freezer where her head, hands and feet were stored, the porch of the trailer where she was killed and dumpsters where the rest of her was dumped. This is where I lack information because if she died her eyes were open. Souls come into this would in groups or clusters and likewise that is how they leave, and that explains a bunch of incidences of children like Aliahna (handicapped, vulnerable, sunny, and good) departing this earth mentally, physically, spiritually shattered. Yet their killers (angels of death) still walking, talking, breathing and living. Hardly seems fair. But why does this happen? Only God knows this, but I know for certain the spirit lives on. It is said in many cultures that one who seems to attract such evil to them in such a short life span was in a previous life a vile person who did much evil but had either advanced in terms of soul just enough to be born again into human form, or they were at all times a Bodhisattva that had purposely chosen not to stay in a state of Buddha hood for the betterment of sentient beings (a mission) or they had to go through shattering of ego to advance to some other purpose or better state of being. I think there is something to that. So if you approach this from the perspective that Aliahna was born into this world knowing and choosing who her parents would be and how she would live and die on this earth, but perhaps not knowing while conscious on earth, but maybe knowing again once passed from this earth again, the analysis greatly changes and the meaning of this 9 year old’s like takes on a whole different picture. Now take all that and combine that with the idea that all of us are connected to the extent that what we think “is” so maybe all that “is” might really be all that we think. Query do things happen because somebody thought it or do people think things because they have happened. There is a etymology for all this stuff. While visions of sugar plums at Christmastime danced in this poor little girt’s head somebody had thought of bashing her little head in with a brick. And there you have “good” and “evil”, “innocent” and “guilty” juxtaposed, but the truth is we are all good, we are all evil, we are all innocent and we are all guilty and that is why this little girl was alive and that is why she is now dead. That’s heavy.

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Posted by on December 28, 2011 in Uncategorized


Oops I did it again
I posted a comment to Nancy Grace blog Monday at 7:00 p.m. stating that I felt the child was past, what happened and who was responsible. I don’t like being right. But an hour later police found the body, and I was right about who did it. Horrible.

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Posted by on December 27, 2011 in Uncategorized


Karen Swift

Right after Thanksgiving I posted comments on just about every article I could find on Karen Swift saying they should search around Highway 78 and Harnass Road.  That comment drew criticism because that area had been searched well.  I suggested it be searched again.  Today, 12/10/2011 a body was found around Highway 78 and Harnass Road.  She has been missing for about 6 weeks, the have reported the body recovered is in early stages of decomposition.  I have repeated posted she was probably transported in a refrigerated truck.  That drew criticism too.  I am not psychic.  I am not psychiatric.  I don’t know if it is a brain thing, spiritual thing, or what kind of thing, don’t know how it happens.  I am not right all the time but when I have a strong sense of urgency about something I am usually right on the mark so the fact I can’t explain it is kind of irrelevant.  I can say that I have a keen sense of how people in between states (e.g. Bardo state) can get stuck in an “in between” world (Middle World) when extreme violence and some aspect of their being attaches to the geographical location their body comes to a rest at and attempts to depart or in some cases, tried to come back.  My avatar pic for this blog is a specific location (geographical locus) where my  own “in between” state attached to the environment (in between world).   Any body that has had a really bad wreck where they sustained severe injuries has likely experienced something similar and maybe over time it extinguishes, or maybe not.  Doesn’t matter, pieces of them or some aspect of their essence is still at that spot and they remain aware of it.  I believe that is true whether the person’s body survives or not.   I am not psychic but I really think there is some truth to it and that is why I call this blog “psychicstalker” .  I created this blog to start  keeping a journal to monitor occurrences I experience.  I think it is more an analysis or exercise that stalks psychic attributes that lingers or attaches to metal, gold, silver, copper, nickel, rocks, riverbeds, background noise, caves, trees, sand, water, dirt, mud, boring middle world environment.  Maybe a good metaphor might be “metaphysical bloodhound” for geographical sites, environment or metal.    Maybe I should have named this blog site “Metaphysical Bloodhound”.  Go figure.

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Posted by on December 11, 2011 in Uncategorized


On CNN I read this little girl was missing. I posted a comment to the story saying the person that took her either lived in her apartment complex or worked there and the police would arrest him soon. He lived there, and he worked there, and he was arrested the day after my post. I’m not psychic but I really don’t know how I do that. I suppose if I tried to do that I probably couldn’t. Apparently I don’t try to a lot because it happens all the time. So I am kind of keeping this little journal when things like that happen. I am probably in denial, and that is why I want to kind of keep track of when it happens. I was horrified by what happened to this little girl.

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Posted by on December 11, 2011 in Uncategorized



I am having another psychicstalker moment.  For the last few months I have felt like Tripoli is going to implode.  And now I really have a deep impending sense that Tripoli is going to implode, that certain parts of it are perhaps engineered to implode to trap many thousands of people on a scale that is going to be pretty much unimaginable.   I would not want to be right about that but I have had a nagging sense of it for several months and now the feeling is impending.  I believe the international journalists at the Rixos Hotel are just sitting ducks and they probably know it.  I think Saif Gadhafi went there to show the journalist that he still has power over them, literally.   Even the electricity in the hotel came back on once he arrived there today.  He went there because he knows what is about to happen to them.  I think this is going to be devastating.  I think Gadhafi has weapons of mass destruction and before he lets anyone take over his government he will kill as many people as he can all at once, could be as soon as tomorrow.  I hope I am not right.  I have no good explanation as to why I seem to see this or sense this other than theories like we are all connected to the extent we come apart to come back together again, that sort of thing.  For me the event I am sensing can be compared to a blurred, frozen frame, mixed up, large and awful.   I don’t really like having those kinds of feelings but I have to relax and just accept them as part of my experience because in some small and weird way I have chosen to experience it along with all the other observers who think they are are experiencing an observation or phenomenon they have in common of events they think are independent of or outside of themselves.

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Posted by on August 22, 2011 in Uncategorized